Dropped the ball a little there didn't I?

As the title would imply...erm hello.

I know no one reads my blog and to be honest, that is fine by me for now. I need to work out what it is that I actually want to say before I fully commit to pushing my blog in peoples faces.

That being said I do need a rant...

I have had a crap week, I have felt sick for days with some weird cold thing and our pipes under the floor in the bathroom have had to be ripped up following a split and unpleasant "toilet leak"...this was resolved last night only for the toilet to re-block itself this evening and the smell of drains (and lets be honest sh*t) has once again begun to fill the bathroom. I am so annoyed, we pay nearly £600 per month to live here, the very least we deserve for the money we cough up each month is a working bathroom.

UGH! I kind of wish it just didn't smell or back up and we hadn't noticed, I know it's bad but it is said that ignorance is bliss.

Anyway I am way too stroppy to continue (or spell check this) so...

Caz out

Food and I

I have a really unhealthy relationship with food. If I am sad I either stuff my face until I am sick or stave myself.

Today has been an "all you can eat" kinda day. It makes me feel shitty to do it to myself, I guess I don't cope with stress very well.

I am not sure if logging my food is helping me or not. I use a website called My Fitness Pal to log my calorie intake, if I am having a normal day this doesn't "trigger" me however on a day like today (where I could crawl into a hole and never return) it has made it hard to look into the face of something so unpleasant.

I feel like my venting has helped a little so I may continue to use this blog as a way of letting go of my issues before they spiral out of control.

I think I need to work on my confidence, work on "me" for a bit (as horribly cliche as that sounds)

How do you deal with stress?

Caz

x

Relaxed Monday

I have spent practically my entire day play "DiscWorld Noir", eating my way through 24 (Tesco value!) Jaffa Cakes and drinking more coffee from my TARDIS mug then the human body should be able to handle.

I have been tempted back to try out Twitter once again, I can't say I understand the concept particularly but I am having a go. Does anyone reading my blog have a Twitter account? Can you sell the benefits of it to me?

I feel a bit weird just adding people on Twitter, it feels like I have walked up to someone in the street I don't know and just starting chatting to them. I am a fairly poor judge of character and so much is so easily misconstrued on the internet I am unsure how I am supposed to develop an opinion on someone based on a few tweets and a photo.

Maybe I am just old fashioned.

On the whole today has been a good day.

Hope you are well,

Caz

Grey days

                                            Grey, rainy days make me introspective.

I have been thinking a lot about compliments, I never know how to take them. Yesterday a lovely shop assistant stopped me to say she liked my hair. She was very polite and said she has been trying to get her hair to the same colour as mine for a while with out much success.

Instead of me being a normal human being and just accepting her complement I felt the need to run myself down. I am fairly certain I made her feel awkward and realised quite quickly that I may look like I am phishing for complements (when in fact I am just a socially awkward dork)

So my question to you guys is, how do you take complements? Is there some big life lesson I missed out on? Tips and advice are gratefully welcomed.

I have been drawing this afternoon, this is my first attempt at anything even vaguely feline. It is another one of those instances where I am told it looks good and I can't take a complement.

I know I'm not the best artist (there I go again sounding like I am phishing) but I am quite pleased with my work. So in the spirit of sharing, here is my effort at a tiger (for my dad for fathers day).

Have a great day,

Caz

Where to start?

I have always thought of blogging as self indulgent, something "other people" do. I have since decided that I am in fact an idiot.

So I have no real idea of what to say or what to do. I am very aware that the internet, whilst seeming fairly disconnected from real life is in a very real way tangled around every person that has a laptop/smart phone/pc etc.

I am also hyper aware of the fact that by having a go at this whole blogging malarky I am sending my thoughts, feelings and most importantly my opinions out into the world.

I am cautious of this (and many other things in life) so I am going to try to make sure that anything I do say is backed up by reason...however this is the internet and reason doesn't really factor into it a great deal.

So here I am, blogging for the first time and wondering just who in the hell will read my ramblings.

I think I will leave it there for today, nice to meet you.

My name is Caz